Minz will start working at Changi on 8Feb.
As she calculated, the transport expense is about nearly 10% of her salary and almost 50% of her total pay raised.
Total hour spend is about 78hrs per month!! Oh mine, she is left with PEANUTS after all the mischievous expense! With accordance of the work scope, and balance of her salary,

Minz wonder if she seriously underpaid!!

Wow the company sure know how to calculate…… -_-

Just 1 year, just 1 year and that’s it. She not goin to work in an 3PL that locate @ Changi.

Labels: work

Sometime both think so alike till it actually freaks Minz; could it be the same dob character traits or the unknowing 默契 thou share?

Anyway Minz didn’t expect him to make such suggestion…… She wanted to suggest initially, but she didn’t as afraid he may get the wrong message (well Minz is always not tactical enough, she will speak just her mind rashly and hazily) and dwell inside it again like what happen on Sat; Something she wanted to express on her unhappiness on why he actually brag and stuff on Thur, of which it dispirit a person’s day all the way till Sat, even though from Friday till Sat itself, there is ongoing msg which would hav clear or sooth off the msg, or any of his own misunderstanding. And how familiar of this behavior to be…. isn’t it a behavior which incurs in Minz often –　钻牛角尖. If both are like this, isn’t that worrisome?

If it is true that both behave similar, it is really best for both to clam down for a while., Minz do not want to repeat the history of R where loneliness consume her and allow emotion control herself irrationally, or the case of D where she forced herself to accept someone cos everyone told her he’s good, and shouldn’t miss the chance.

It is true that both had hit off quite well, and may even share similar interests, and the amazing unexplainable fate occur within them, but should there be further development or not…. all these can only contribute partially only for the actual conclude.

What ever lie ahead them…. 顺其自然吧，走一步看一步。。。。

Labels: love, thoughts

Past R case, remind Minz that nv believe on one’s word fully. 听就好

Minz不是十七十八岁的小妹妹，她不需要花言桥语，可爱的洋娃娃，or any other fancy gifts. 她要的是一份真心，一份感觉，一份成熟，一份稳定，一份安全感。。。。

Minz seriously hate those who brag and extrag stuff.

She really like to believe it as it so sweet. But there is so much 疑点 behind every words!

Anyway again Minz foolishly believe. F****

1) U went look through one’s wall posts, to learn that she wanted to go AFA. And said: “ai ya, I also wanted to go tat time, missed it.” But when asked, he cannot answer what do AFA stand for and what events goin on. For one to go, shouldn’t u know some basic or even if u do not know, be humble to ask.?

2) U said u watch Naruto, but when an impt character pointed to u, u would recognize at all? Isnt tat strange?

3) Those who watch naruto, if one will to watch online etc, one may know what is the feeling of chasing of the weekly broadcast, feeling “pek sei” when u hav to wait till next week to see the continued battle? When asked he has no idea at all what u talking abt.

4) Next, u said u nv want to learn to drive….. but start learning becos of one, and u are starting next week. Sound really sweet. But later to find out that since last yr he already started learning! Except that he failed many times last yr, and it may be just part of his plan for this year.

Damn fucks ass!!!

And u lie all this in front of ghz? Shame on u!

u may be much older…… but u dun behave like one at all!!

Minz feel so damn pissed.

Labels: love, thoughts

A good metaphor Ms P use.

“U are now looking at a bowl of hawker laksa. people keep telling u this stall is nice, and u bought it. however u are thinking maybe this bowl of laksa, once taken may have stomache, hence u restrained yrself from eating. however u feel so tempted to eat it cos you can smell it looks good. than again u saw all the oil on the surface, eat already will become fat? you tell yourself.

Looking at others, all of them queing for the laksa restaurant. they said they have tried and it does not contain much oil. hence, you are wondering should i eat this laksa that i have bought, or should i walk over to the other side and que for laksa restaurant which have to wait longer.”

“Just leave the laksa alone, cos if u eat liao, u also wont like it, cos u have no intentions of eating it at all, u considering to eat it cos people tell u its nice and u are hungry”

Labels: friends, love, perceptions

How can u said everything is worth for this particular person when u only know her for like less than a month?
Is like totally a crush, goin gaga abt someone, behaving irrationally. Arent u too old for that?

Minz do not denied, 她有心动过。She do thought of that person very often. But Minz understand herself too well, she too easier get 心动了，心太软了。And for a age of a quarter century, she wanted to start dealing with this more rationally, and not let her 泛滥的感情overwhelm her again.

But minz also have her own faults too, to lead tat person to go gaga over her. Should tat be a lesson of her? Should there be a new turn?

She is helpless now, only to continue chanting…….. Wonder what ghz will hint her in the coming road…

Labels: love, thoughts

Suddenly some memories flash across……

Minz realise something weird. Hw can such impt character be forgotten? How can u not know the feels on weekly broadcast?

Damn… Minz realise hw stupid she is to believe!

Minz seriously hate those who extrag stuff that is not that. –_-

Next time Minz let her dumb emotional control herself again, she better knock against the door!

Anyway totally Blacklisted!

Labels: afterthoughts, love

1) I wan to have more accomplishment in my work, i wan to create value for myself.

2) Be more serious in work, play and dealing with pple (tactful).

3) I wan be a better person – happier; with open hearted in looking/dealing at things and pple, be a more likable person for myself to love more. (haaa……) and for others too. Abit More patience, better temper.

4) Have more friends, whom i can spend precious and good moment with.

5) Hope to have more exposures; create knowledge => help me in opening my heart

6) In the persuade of rainbow, filled up my life with colours of meanings. (slowly……)

7) Hope to meet the fated one, and treasure. To be the person i want to be for him and myself.

8) i want to balance work, play and YOG. Able to tackle them.

Am i too greedy to have so many thing at one go. Hehehee…

Labels: thoughts

Sometime is good to have thing cool down first, and not do thing in a urgent fleet of passion.

Shld have a more thorough understanding before moving forward. Well think Minz is not mature and sensible enough ba. Good thing history did not really repeat.

Sigh… at the same time, Minz wonder if she is thinking too much also. Maybe that nothing in the first place. Just an act of gentlemenism……

But why would anyone comment on almost all of ur comments/update, while not to others? And worst, look thru one’s profile thoroughly and track back all the way to 1month+ ago? And trying to like i have the same interest too. Huh? Or sms in the middle of the night “dun cry”! Maybe Minz is really thinking too much. But kinda freak her out too.

Nei……

**Minz buried Minnie-san in the hill of cushions, not wanting to think abits** >_<

Labels: afterthoughts, love

Did Minz do anything to cause one to flirt with her?

That is scary…… Is that Minz’s nature? OMG!!!

Maybe Minz should really restraint herself more!!

敏是应该检讨了。。。。。。

Minz wonder if she will kelakang pusing again……

Maybe she just think too much ba of which she is afraid of. This should really shld not go on. Sigh……

Minz think she should focus on ur career and YOG for time being… nothing else.

Minz havent even start working there, she did not expect just the choice itself to work in Changi could be this tough.

The courage to accept such harsh condition job is already very difficult; A Sai Kang Job, Low Pay and Super damn far location, yet she still have to face so many negative and harsh remarks from fellow friends and colleagues. Everyone think she is siao to accept the job.

This is so not encouraging…..

Minz sometime cant help doubting if this is just a act of her impulse? Desperation of new job? Or laziness to seek new job?

Did she made the right choice?

Minz cant deny she do sway, and sway a lot whenever she receive such remarks. What to do; Minz is always so sensitive toward pple’s words, and take it very personal.

But for this time, at least, she want to stick on to the decision she had made, and do not want to get be affect by what people said.

Yes this is a mad choice, a mad choice that is meant to torture herself…. Yes Minz want to torture herself, in order to grow. She is tired of being tag with the word “dan chun”, “nerd” and “greenhouse flower”. She really REALLY HATE IT. She want to be independent, she is thirsty for knowledge, she want more exposure, she wan to take out challenges in extreme environment.

Labels: thoughts, work

Receive a email recently, out of the blue, Minz was call into the Staff recreation committee meeting.

Huh? No consent or even opinion was seek from Minz if she wan to join the committee or even any notification before hand regarding this. -_-…..

Nevertheless, this seem like a form of acknowledge from fellow colleagues for Minz.

Minz always has a lot of opinions toward the company’s activities, to be able to get involve in the planning and coordinating was like a dream come true for her.

But why of this time and not earlier? When she finally decide to let go everything here and seek for greener pasture, more attachments come in - new role as committee, new office environment with newly built bonds with colleagues and boss.

Is this a test of Minz’s determination to leave? Or a sign to tell Minz is not the right time to leave?

Minz wonder hard…..

Labels: thoughts, work

Minz actually did not expect her mum to discourage her on the enshrine. She was so confident her mum will actually agree as she was so supportive back then. Well…. Maybe Minz take it too much as granted, oversee some stuff ba.

Although Minz can just go ahead and just enshrine, her mum did mention she will respect and trust on her decision at the end of the day. But words from her mum, did give her some doubts on this. Is not that she do not want to seek help from the members, is… is that “help”? Is not about having explanation to parents or to myself etc. Cos is nothing near to it too, and such action may even made things worst, a initial “I will respect” may turn out “dun think of it” or even negative impression in the future.

Minz know talking to others assure her a lot of things, and it actually help at times. But sometime she feel something not right abt it, the feeling was like peer pressure, or worst case hard selling. Such feel should nv even exist, but why here? Something just not feel right.

The teaching is Buddhism, the message transmit to all is correct and good, the way it present itself was modernize and very suitable for the 20^th century era, to encourage pple to continue fighting yet with a positive mind and kind heart. But the way pple get the message to others…. Seem seem….. Buddhism should nv be about superstition, is more on self development and enlightenment of which it bring positive impacts/effects/hopes to pple around you. But some of them package it like….. dun know hw to said in words.

It not abt fear of commitment, is not abt not believing. Minz still believe in the mystical power, and she still chant. She even still had her little buchidan at home to constantly remind her on the enshrine.

Minz jus think it not the time yet like what her mum said. Somehow there something she need to adjust and enlighten to proceed on, and only by herself, with herself. And when her family feel the same with her too. When her family had and truly full support only.

Labels: afterthoughts, religious

Well think it is the first time, Minz went out alone with Ay, though know her for like 3yrs+ liao. She is such nice sweet girl!! Minz wonder what r the guys doing, such a nice girl, pleasant character, educated, filial, down to earth, a perfect for wife candidate! Yet guys nowadays rather go for those Chi-na mei, who cheat all their money and went MIA. Oh or like the recent case, even killed your family members… Sigh… Minz know is not good to be stereotype toward them, but such cases occur so frequent recently, she cant help but to related them altogether. Pple who grow up in big city, or place which are very competitive, may adopt a realistic point of view and selfish character. Although is understandable for such a behavior, but 如此没道德, 自私与不怜悯他人的行为，真的很难原谅。

Ok back to the topic, went to Far East to shop for dress to be wore on Bee’s wedding. Minz’s goal is to find a nice dress for Ay of which she can look great and can will wear in the future. Ay always dun wear her dress or even skirt one, she always left them in her wardrobe to rot after the function. Such a waste nei!!

Must find a dress of which will has a higher chance she will wear for the 2^nd time, and accordingly to Minz’s understanding of Ay, the dress must not be to fanciful, versatile for work and play, not too revealing yet can bring the best out of her.. Sound difficult hor. Hahahaa… Minz still manage to find the dress. It’s a little black dress, with a unique collar design, and accessorize with the recent trendy, high waist belt. But it slightly abv Ay budget wo, it $69.90. Hope Ay will wear in the future, must distribute the cost over the no. of time wear ma. Hehehe…

Minz had her dinner at a very cute restaurant. It is suppose to be Japanese fast food restaurant, the concept is good, but the actual intention dun seem get to the customer, sometime not right lei.

Minz suppose to buy her food through the “vending machine”, but it end up the waitress helping to do everything. Deficit the purpose of self buying, low manpower ideology. The restaurant was not well maintained as well, the seats are littered with plastic bag and tissues. The restaurant is kinda of deserted, the waitress is jus sitting around doin nothing much, such litters should be clear long ago. Next, when the food is ready, the voice is soft, u cant hear the calling at all, there is no significant tag/sign to indicate readiness of food for u to see also. In the end the waitress had to come all the way to your place to tell u that u can collect your food already, like that must well the waitress deliver the food on your table better. For lower customer rate, these could still work, but if there a higher rate? …It will definitely be very chaotic…

Nevertheless, there is still pros in this restaurant. The bento is damn KAWAII!! Minz bento rice come in the shape of a smiley face! The utensil they use is jappy too. The typical Japanese disposal bento box which look just too nice to be thrown away. The taste of the bento look and taste good too, may not be comparable to Yoshinoya, but of the lower price, is justifiable. Oh, not to mention the uniform of the waitress too, cosplay style, so fit in the theme.

This is really a good concept, and I think is one of the first to introduce in Singapore. Location chosen is actually good too, for such new concept shop to be locate at mall of which major customer is young adults and teenagers, it help to quench the thirst of youngster’s curiosity. But… such a pity… There is still room of improvement la.

Anyway at the end of day, Minz didn’t manage to get anything dress for herself wo. Cant find. >_<. However in consolation and to award herself to accomplish her self made mission, she bought a black watch for herself! Hehehe… Cheapo one, it only $15 only. Hehehe…

Now Minz had to prayed hard that she had fit into the dress she bough online. Else she had to wear something out of tat night theme of Black and Red liao.

Labels: afterthoughts, food, shopping

At least I had a slight clue of what the title is and of what I will be doing.

Those pple kept telling all those fancy stuffs, and general layout, make pple so damn f***ing confused. Couldn't address my enquires and concern at all. Whatever they had said just made me more uncomfortable and insecure.

If you are so cautious and unsure, and yet u want ur employee to be absolute sure, shouldn’t u be more direct and specific?

Good thing got insider, manage to hear the truth.

Labels: work

The day for Minz to graduate had finally come!! YahOOooo……

For the past 21 months of struggles, to juggle between work, play and study, today is really not easy to come by. Though is a blank in her blog, these days have imprinted in Minz’s memory and goin stay with her through.

To her classmate, their most significant gain is the knowledge and that piece of cert of which may decide their career prospect. Minz acknowledge on that attainment too, but to her the most fruitful attainment is the journey; the journey of tears and laughter, the new friends she made, whom she go through thick and thin, the new exposure she has, 的人与人相处的学习之道等。

Minz is really lucky to meet her team, they help and encourage her along the way, and most important they accept her of who she is, give her chance to make up her mistakes and to improve. (Minz actually receive a feedback from my team mate that she improve the most wo! Hehehe…… Shy**)

Looking at some other teams, like work, they use office political style to deal with teammate relationship, they kick pple out not becos they are not doin their job well, is just that they FEEL they are not up to the standard, and next they will start snatching other team’s leader etc. Ironically, those we execute such act aren’t up to their so called own standard too.

What make it worst, they are some who spread rumors to tarnish other’s reputation, not for some tangible gains but just something due to their own narrow mind. Well after all, minz’s classmate’s had wide range of age group, the adult’s world sure are complicate and realistic. Or maybe minz was just too simple and naïve to start with?

Anyway Minz is seriously excited for this event, she wake up at 6am, and reach 1hr++ earlier. Hahahahaaa….. talking abt kiasu, I sure fit in the bill.

Minz 超级不要脸的到处跟人拍照! Hahahaa……平时大家都不想也不准拍, 这对爱拍照地Minz是很痛苦的呢! 如此千载难逢的机会，你说Min会放过吗? =P

Minz also manage to take a photo with him lei!! So Glad** Of so many pple around Minz nv ask anyone but him, Minz wonder what will he think… haaa… well she wont be goin to see him anymore liao. Throw face also dun care liao. Hehehee……

Today Minz had a family photo taken too! Think it been a decade since the last one was taken nei! Goin to frame it up and hang @ home. Wahahahaaa……

Think the only pity is Minz didn’t get to take pic with her鼠爸. Hope got chance to catch up with ah pa soon too.

Labels: afterthoughts, family, photos, thoughts

Just realize something very freaking.

All the while i know my colleague is a amulet collector. But just recently i find out abt some of the amulet he had.

No wonder he is nv lack of gf la. He is collecting love amulet! The main ingredients of these amulets is corpse oil (not just any corpse, has to be like unborn babies, women who had accidental death etc), accumulation/concentrate sperms of animal etc.

Something i recall something. Back then there was this suitor, under normal circumstances, he is not my cup of tea lor, but i had no idea i was really like him, he is alway in my thoughts. And of what i know, he is also sort of amulet collector! But i dun what he collect la. @@”

OMG…… This is scary.

What Minz is seeking.

1. A more robust, lively environment with better colleagues

2. Job which can lead me to more exposure, more opportunities to learn as much as I can. (Minz is not getting younger, learning speed is not as quick and flex as she use to be already. Sad*)

3. She wan to meet more pple, wan to wider her social circle! Minz seek the chance to fall in love again. hehehe…

4. Of course better pay. More commitment coming in next year while her bro move out and as her parents get older.

Minz do not wish to work for the sake of money and climbing corporate ladder, but she do understand it is a realistic fact that one must consider, just that it will not be in 1^st priority. Minz want to learn, to look into longer term prospect and not short term.

Current Situation:

1. A more robust, lively environment with better colleagues – Yes, there is more yg pple, but as she do not fall into a particular roles, the working together and communicate together will be lesser, Pros and Cons la. But consist a lot of PRC and Msia lor.

2. Job which can lead minz to more exposure, more opportunities to learn as much as she can. Minz is not getting younger, learning speed is not as quick and flex as she use to be already. – Just B. and still have to hold on to her existence job + B. Just B, although it is very complex and challenging in term of the customer u will need to handle, but the process will be boring in long term. Learning and understand operation is diff with getting ur hands on, involving into operation. the two m make it sound it like so promising ans easy like tat. -_- kns!

3. She wan to meet more pple, wan to wider her social circle! Minz seek the chance to fall in love again. hehehe… – Yes more yg pple, but majority married. Lol~ Those with family, hav diff focus. The pple to meet, scanning through the existence staffs, it isnt what she had in mind….

4. Of course better pay. More commitment coming in next year; bro moving out and parents getting older. - They did not cover on tat at all. But looking @ company situation now, Minz do not expect anything high. W/o transport provide, she expecting abt 200 increase to cover her transport fees and time to spend on journey.

Minz do not wish to work for the sake of money and climbing corporate ladder, but she do understand it is a realistic fact that one must consider, just that it will not be in 1^st priority. – There is not much money and position to consider in this situation at all. Sigh…..

It since to Minz, money dun seem to be a issue in the case already. This was the initial thought, to see what company offer her, then she decide if it is worth to take up. If pay higher pay, and she manage to hold on for at least a year there, moving on to the next career path, she can request for higher wages.

But now looking at long term, Minz dun seem to equip with enough knowledge to fit into the current market requirements. Even if she complete her year there, she dun seem to gain any better stand/market value as well as it is jus B; how r u going write that in your resume, as u only do B?!! Hence demanding for higher pay in the next path, the lights are dim.

To delay a year of seeking exposures and experiences, is more of a disadvantage to Minz.

To have the initial thought to stay back in the company and accept the promo is it becos she is lack of courage to move out from here, and just wanting the company to lead her on instead? Is it true?

She need even more courage to turn down the offer, and extra more courage to look for job now. Fear overwhelm her.

Labels: thoughts, work

Had Minz’s prayer been hear? The thing which Minz was caught in dilemma was once again rise to surface after 2months of silent, running and boredom. And now she had to made a decision by tmr. Really fast… But isnt it exactly of what Minz had want, “get it over and done with”

This is a rare opportunity, what ever decision she made she had to make sure she will not regret in the future.

Long term… Short Term…

What does Minz want?

Labels: work

If you are given a chance to 升值加薪，will you accept?

What will u put into concerns?

Title/Position? Salary? Benefit and welfare? Environment? Scope of work?

Labels: work